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[16 Sep 2006|01:01am]
A new home, a new community, a new era. I guess I'm leaving tomorrow morning at around 6am. It's been some great years here at the mont. I've lived here all my life, in the same house, on the same bed, and always seeing the same people around. Saw many friends tonight, whether close or distant, they all homies. Packing was a bitch because all the old memories came back. I saw many old letters, report cards, school IDs, gold coin from the gold rush at Gomes, sharktooth from Marine World, all my trophies from all those years back in soccer, baseball, chess, and what not. Emotional as I am, I just cry. I don't know why I cry, but everytime after I cry, everyone thinks I'm high. Seeing all these mother fuckas this last night was sick, and it's just hard to believe that we're leaving already. Just a month ago, September 16th sounded so far away. But now, it's here. TADA! Well I guess I should be excited, but I just dont know if I could really leave this boring, squareass town. It's kinda dumb, but I'll still be going dumb. The times were divine and this last summer could not have been any better. Hittin' up all the hot spots of Fremont and just partying and fucking shit up was defintely legendary. My mom keeps telling me and praying for me everyday to be a Christian. I mean it's hard, it really is. The life I live right now is far from holy, but I will strive to become a better person and just stand tall in the face of danger. San Diego is going to be a whole new world, but at least I have a single dorm in which I can thrive and find some heavenly divines. My family is probably what I am going to miss the most. Having a such a big family is a great privilege, but it also makes it so much harder to leave. I love my brother so much because he's always there to cover for me for all the bad shit that I do. He never snitches and just keeps it real while holding his ground. I just taught him stick today and I hope he will take good care of my car, bossin' it and mobbin' around Fremont. My sisters are seriously my pride and joy and I just love seeing them everyday, hugging them and tucking them into bed. It sucks badly to see them cry today and I could seriously just hug them forever. It's disappointing that I won't be here to see them grow everyday, but they'll always be on my mind and I'll always be thinking about them. I love my parents endlessly. They care for me, but they let me run free. I have had no curfew since I don't know when and it will just be hard for me to leave them. My dad working so hard everyday to support our family, and my mom just being a boss in the house. I just pray that my mom will get better because she has been sick for far too long. I love her so much and I can't stand to see her in pain everyday. I'd give my life to see her in heaven, and that is what I am striving to do. Today, I woke up at around 12pm and packed all the way till 8. We went to Ohana for dinner and chilled at DSW and Coldstone for a bit. I love my grandma, she's always actin' a fool carrying around a longs plastic bag as her wallet. Those cashiers think she's on crack, but after she pulls out hundreds out of that plastic bag, they're just like 'what the fuck.' Fremont has been my home forever. I don't know if I could sleep on any other bed or live with any other people. My family and my friends are what makes my life real. I love all of you and everyone please keep in touch. Fuck up you're respective colleges and come back with mad stories. Class of 06, never forget.
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[23 Aug 2006|07:04pm]
My mommy just asked me when she should order to U-Haul to help bring my stuff down to SD.
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[21 Aug 2006|12:36am]
Snakes on a Plane was one fucking good movie (no sarcasm intended).
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my family, whom i love with all my fucking heart [14 Jun 2006|10:35pm]
it's all over...
not even thinking about my friends I'm already sad as fuck
my family has been my everything that i've had
my parents who i love so much
my mom who hugs me and cooks for me everyday
my brother who i always hang out with, play games with, and have a true companionship with
my two sisters who i hug everyday and kiss goodnight every single night
i cant fucking stand it
i'm fucking going crazy just thinking about it
i've cried for the last three days
i see my fucking big family everyday
i love them so much and i'm just so close with them
i'm going to fucking die when i go off to college
san diego is 8 hours away and i dont know how long i will cry
won't be able to see my sisters come into my room dancing
won't be able to see my sisters jump on my bed and ask me to play with them
won't be able to have my mom cook food for me to make me fat
won't be able to have my dad swear and say nigger in funny ways around the house
won't be able to give my sisters a hug everyday
won't be able to have my mom tell me she loves me
won't be able to have my brother call me over to see what cool items he got in his games
won't be able to tell my brother to work hard for his grades
won't be able to see my sisters grow everyday
won't be able to have my sisters always asking me for help on homework
won't be able to see my sisters be annoying and fight over the stupidest yet cutest shit
won't be able to call my brother a dumbass mother fucker for fun
won't be able to ....... live
i just can't stop crying and i feel like i am going to fucking die
i don't even want to fucking goto college anymore
everytime i just think about my family, tears just come out forever.
i love you albert, ann, andrew, anna, allison
may our love and strength as a family never die
i love all of you so much and you guys know it
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[21 May 2006|09:01pm]
this is possibly the worst weekend of my life.

just when i try to be good, everything bad falls upon me.

what else can i be besides sad?

fuck my life.
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[20 May 2006|02:22am]
Life is pretty flawless nowadays.
Loving life in the final stretch of my high school career is just great.

I want to pull off something crazy for prom, but I don't know if i can.
Hopefully everything will be cool and I won't end up looking like a d-bag. :)
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[14 May 2006|10:14pm]
Life is soooooo good. :)
I am no longer a slave.
My life can only go up from here.
Proud I am.

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[04 Feb 2006|07:19pm]
ferragamo sounds good.
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Senior Cut Day '06 [13 Oct 2005|04:43pm]
Good job to class of '06.
It was our last year and we ended it right.
Too bad we barely practiced our airbands and made one in one day.
Our airbands could've definitely been better, but our skit just raped the world a new asshole.
It's kinda funny how the juniors think their airbands were better than ours.
Sure their last two airbands were sickness, but their airbands had people of other grades as well, and that's just lame.
Seniors also had far MORE airbands and far MORE decent/sick ones. I just don't see why they think their airbands are the best.
Many of our airbands I thought would be pure shit, but many pulled through and I believe we had at least 3-4 really tight ones.
And I really regret not thinking of doing a really good guy/girl dance earlier. That little guy/girl booty airband was done in one day and it was pretty good in my opinion, but if we had spent a month on it, daYmnnnnnnnnnnn! Well, nothing we can do now anyways!
But anyways,
Yeah, so fucking tired, nitey nitey.

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This is the reigning pyramid, even though Eric looks like he's about to fall and Thomas looks scared as fuck.

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I like how Amin has to wear jeans, rawr.

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Please take a look at Amin's face. Hahahahahaha.
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[25 Sep 2005|10:41am]

They are asking for publicity, and I believe that it is a well written article. Please do not bash me, and read at your own will!


[24 Sep 2005|12:03am]
First dance, was the best dance... so far.
I love senior year. :)

hahahahaha ---
: seriously
: if the dont like it
: its just dancing
: if you are offended GO BACK TO HOPKINS
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[18 Jun 2005|01:16pm]
Richard Zhang good luck. Have fun. Call often, fellow gangster.

I am a bad person.
Insecurity is the social kiss of death.
Always pulling gay bullshit and I guess that I really do regret it now.
As my poem once said
"Why can I just be like a bird?
Fly away everytime I fuck up,
Instead of coming back the next day to suck up."

Can't stop anymore.
Trying so hard and failing again.
Common susceptible temptations of life.
The callings of Lucifer the Devil.
Praying for a snowstorm of mercy.

Thanks, Sophia.

Driving me crazy.
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